got to think??

sometimes i got to think twice , why i am in this world. struggles and disappointments are always on my way. there are times i don't know what to do cause, after a wrong move is a serious injury.
they are those people that will not think of others feelings and hardships, but people who will think only of themselves.

sometimes i just got to think that God give me this because i can't handle myself very well, that this is just right for me because this should be who am i!

we got the brains, but no beauty or the beauty without brains or someone else owned the beauty and brain title...
got jealous of it, but i need to accept what God had given me, because any matter can only be solved by myself and no one else can give a shit for you...

my dream last night!

i got this dream i think because i watch a romantic movie last night.

well it's kinda weird because i dreamed of him consecutive nights.

it's a dream that he wants me? (he was my crush back from highschool years)

he is a cute guy, nice, kind, smart, but everyone likes him:(

nah.. it's not a sad face, it only means that he is really handsome and a perfect guy for someone.

i don't think so cause he got an attitude? its a combination of an attitude and goodness!

ok lets go back to my dream...

it is we are classmates and seatmates, and he just said something that he likes me!

woah!

holding hands? (a real boyfriend and girlfriend things!)

i am nbsb(no boyfriend since birth) girl and i don't think someone would like me. cause i am not as beautiful and sexy like someone!

my crushness to him just like came back on my mind.

and by the way before i slept last night i prayed to dream of the perfect man for me.

is it a sign? or cruelty?

no one just like to be us!

and sadly at the last part of my dream we broke up and i need to leave spaces!

the sweetness in my dreams! when he touch my hands and give me love that any girl would want?

i think my teenager starts now..

where i feel the love that i would want to have=)